I'm utterly disappointed in myself.
Looking at my grades,
I don't think I'll be able to make it.
Sat down, talked to my mum.
and thought about it long and hard.
Nothing's finalised,
but if it takes me 3years to complete a journey where a normal person takes 2,
I guess I'll just have to accept it.


I'll stay strong.


I'm not worried about myself.
I'm actually worried for others who did worse than me.
I want to help them,
but I don't know how.
Really stupid of me,
I can't even save myself and I want to help others?


For now,
I'm going to totally focus on PW,
and not fret about the possibility of not being able to advance.


People who are worried about me,
(if there are people who are worried about me)
I'm sorry to make you worry.
Don't, ok?
I'm strong,
remember?
I'll always be the cheerful Jolene that all of you know.


All will be revealed on the 5th of November.
Till then.