Results day came and went.
Apart from the minor disappointment in GP, I'm contented with the rest of my grades.
AAB/AB, 86.25 rank points.
What more can I ask for?
Today, receiving that slip that determined the rest of my life was a significant milestone.
It reminded me that God is fair afterall, there will always be a road no matter what.
And it reminded me that the extra year spent was well-worth it, that I have made the correct choice.
That slip, to me, was a congratulatory pat on my back.
It meant that all the pain and humiliation I felt back for repeating the extra year was worth it afterall, that everything wasn't in vain.
What touched me the most, was the concern I felt from all my friends and family.
Especially Sihui Jie.
It's been 2 years since I last saw her, and I've long forgotten about her.
Yet today I've received a text from her wishing me all the best and congratulating me for a job well done.
At that point of time, extreme guilt overwhelmed me.
To think I have forgotten about her and even lost her number but she has never really forgotten about me.
It made me reflect on what sort of person I have become in my relentless rat race of a life.


All in all, today is a day of triumphs, of happy tears and of revelations.
A day that I will definitely hold close to my heart.

It's been a while since I've last updated my blog.
Despite having a tumblr I still prefer using blogger.
I guess that's cos I feel overexposed on tumblr?
At least no one really visits my blog (I think.) so I feel safer airing my thoughts here.


Christmas have past and new year's coming.
I've had a really enjoyable christmas with my family and the shooters.


Heading to Taiwan tomorrow and welcoming 2012 there.
Hope the next year will be a better year than this,
especially since I've had a pretty lousy year with all the mad mad rush and preparation for A Levels.
And I hope in the new year I would be a better daughter, better sister and a better friend.
I've felt as if this year I havent don't anything for anyone.
Life this year has pretty much been about me me and me and I feel rather guilty towards my brother as he needed to cook for me and whatnot during my exams period.
What sort of elder sister am I if I need my younger brother to take care of me?
And I resolve to be a more patient towards my parents, especially since I have done nothing but vex them with my frequent temper tantrums.


And you.
When I return home next January, I believe I will be over you.
Afterall, 10 days in a foreign country, what's there to still hold on to?

Its been a while since I've posted here, isn't it?


A levels are in three days time,
And frankly speaking I'm not too sure exactly how prepared am I.
It's kind scary actually,
knowing that here will be gaps in my knowledge and still going for the As.
I'm really starting to regret those times where I didn't take my studying serious.
Like history, I can pass my history without really studying for it.
But really, is a mere C good enough?
Feels like for the past two years I have been really short-sighted.
I'm only focused on passing and not scoring.
And I'm really regretting it right now.


But in by any case, its too late right now and the only thing I can do is to stay focused.
(easier said than done really /wry smile)


I need to keep telling myself,
no regrets.
Wish me luck.

Why have we become like this?

Disappointment.

How much more can I take?

It starts today.

No more procrastinating,

no more wasting my time.

I've wasted enough time this year.

No more thinking about nonsense and what not.

Today I promise myself that no matter what I do,

I'm going to put myself first.

I'm going to put my studies first.

Forget about everything else.

Yes it starts today.

Darren, why so perfect?? <3

I think I have a soft spot for guys who can play a musical instrument and sing.

Especially if they can sing.

I think I was smiling like some fool while watching this.

But hey can you blame me, it's Darren Criss!

His voice is so dreamy~ ^^

("Let you put your haaaands on me..." *swoons*)

Okay okay, enough of my spazzing.

Back to my mundane history SBQ.

Dianna Agron's voice is really nice here.

All the while I didn't like her voice that much, to me her voice sounded really thin.

And I've always thought that a duet with Lea Michele wouldn't work out cause her voice lack the power that Lea's voice had.

Turns out I was wrong. (:

Oh and Dianna is gorgeous.

CCA standown is tomorrow,

and I'm a little reluctant.

During Nationals season, I kept wanting it to end quickly.

But now that it's drawing to an end, I finally realized that shooting was probably the key reason I pulled myself through every week.

Without shooting, I feel kinda empty.

Perhaps its time I let go.