Long chat with my mom on my way home.
What she said really made a lot of sense.
Of course, everyone wants it to last.
They do like him, and think he's good for me.
But who knows what would happen?
Especially when he's going to be graduating this semester.
Maybe I'm being pessimistic.
Maybe I'm over-thinking this.
But it's precisely because of the importance to me that I feel the need to have that security.


Shouldn't think so much.
Need to appreciate what I have now , instead of worrying incessantly about the future.


Mom said something that made me tear.
She said I'm the gem of the family and I need to learn to protect myself because I don't deserve to be treated anything lesser than that.
She told me that until the day she closes her eyes I will always be her prized possession and she will always protect me.


Reflected on how I treated myself near of last year,
How I basically threw away all my pride and (almost) begged my ex not to forsake me.
Saw how stupid I was for having to do that to myself.
I need to constantly remind myself that I'm better than that.
That I don't have to put myself down and beg for love.
Need to remember that no matter what my family will always love me.


I remember seeing somewhere that in order to love another person I need to love myself first.


Seems pretty apt to what my mom told me.