Yesterday's SMTown was quite the experience.
Fun-filled, yet at the same time enlightening.
I finally understood why I've always felt hesitant to directly show that I'm a Kpop fan.
Not because of the perceived (and totally untrue) inferiority of the music, but because of the association of Kpop fans with irrationality.
I'm not saying that all fans are irrational, but yesterday looking at the situation at the mosh pits I can fully comprehend why people think Kpop fans are irrational.
Words mean nothing, one needs to really be there and experience and see from my perspective.
The pushes, shoves, ugly words, lack of cooperation.
Understandable that everyone is excited to meet their idol, but to that extent.
What good does yelling at each other and pushing do anyway?
And queueing over-week despite RITS already saying that they are not recognising that queue as official? How is that rational?


Or maybe I'm just growing out of this phase.


And you.
Aren't you my friend?
How can you say such hurtful words?
I have finals, most of the uni students do.
Given a choice do you honestly think I would want to study while I'm queuing either?
So what if people are studying, it's not as if those people are disturbing you or anything, everyone is just sitting there anyway.
The very fact you can make such a statement openly shows how little you care about my feelings.
In what way is the idols more important than a friend? And a friend of 7 years, no less.
So hurt that it kept weighing on my mind throughout the whole concert.
Evidently I matter much less to your idols whom you have never interacted and spent time with in your life.
7 years for 4 hours.
I can see that now.