Been at camp for the past 2 days, and I'm really missing home.
I miss my mom, my brother, my dad and my grandpa.
I even miss my dog, although all he does is just sleep everyday.
Despite being known as a family hall, I don't really feel a sense of home with the hall?
Every interaction feels forced, nothing like the interactions with my friends and family.
I really hope it's not my problem and that I'm not social enough.
Or maybe I am just not social enough for a hall life.

It's only been 2 days,
how am I going to survive the rest of the year?
And school hasn't even started yet.
I feel as if I won't even be able to last 1 sem, let alone one year.

Really am looking forward to tomorrow evening,
because it meant that I get to go home.
Perhaps my level of attachment to my family is really a little too unhealthy.
But every time I think of my mom and how she'll be alone at home in the evenings once my brother's internship starts,
and i really just feel like crying.
I feel that I'd rather travel back and forth every day than having to stay so far from home.
I wasn't even happy when I was offered a place in Sheares, I think a part of me has wished that I wasn't offered so that I wouldn't have to stay.
If it hadn't been MOE saying that I have to stay hall, I wouldn't even want to stay at all.
Mom said that she'll try to make my room at hall as close to home as possible, so that I won't feel homesick,
but I am homesick, because it is not the things that make me miss home,
it's my family.

Okay, enough whining.
I made the choice myself, and I will try to survive.
It's only 1 year.
If I really hate it, all I need to do is just to pull through this 1 year and then I'll be able to really go home.